This past week has been a rollercoaster. I’m writing this because when people ask for an update, it’s hard to talk about (I sound like a frog now) or write about in a way that fits into a text message. As I blogged about, I damaged my Eustachian Tube, which connects my ears and nose. After taking tests in August, I was relieved when the ENT said my problems were temporary and I would not become deaf. Whew! Sadly last week I contracted a cold. Now, my ears are hurting again. I’m having trouble fighting the cold because my ears and nose have not yet healed. They were getting better until the cold came. I’ve also been fighting Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) pains. PCOS is the houseguest that crashed my party ten years ago and has yet to leave. While it’s not my worst PCOS episode ever (thank you Reliv!), it doesn’t help.
The Current Prognosis
Yesterday in Urgent Care, the doctor said that if I had gotten the flu, I would have relapsed and we would have to start inpatient treatment for Myasthenia Gravis. And if I had the flu, I could lose my hearing. But how to avoid the flu when everywhere I go most people are not covering their mouths when they cough?
Being Thankful, a Survival Strategy
This is all stressful, obviously. When I was in college struggling with (bipolar) depression and PCOS, one strategy I developed is something I call my “10 List.” I would list ten things I was grateful for. I forced myself to be thankful. For those of us who have been thrown many curveballs, being thankful feels impossible. But I do it because I couldn’t survive without it and because my faith tells me to (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, “…pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”)
This Week’s “10 List”
- PCOS doctor was generous–I have no insurance now but I had to see her. She didn’t charge me for the visit and she gave me eight months of free meds!
- Kristine fixed my DVD—A former student, Kristine, fixed my machine. Now I can watch my New Kids on the Block Music Videos and Carol Burnett’s Greatest Hits as opposed to reruns of television shows I hate while bedridden.
- Bret proofread my 2-page letter—Despite being busy, my friend proofread my document, (which relates to my upcoming pitch to New Harbinger regarding my book).
- Prognosis—I have the cold instead of the flu.
- Friends—I saw two friends I haven’t seen in months: Frank and Carol. I previously blogged about Carol who is a true warrior—she fights lupus and bipolar disorder. I also talked on the phone to my friend Ron whom I haven’t talked to since May. Another best friend, Amy, randomly called me today—not knowing anything about my current siutation. And she prayed for me. My cousin Shelly has also been praying as well as other friends. My friend, Cylicia, wrote a random post on my Facebook wall saying she is thinking of me.
- Understanding Boss—I write for http://www.askabipolar.com. Readers anonymously submit questions they have about bipolar disorder, and we respond. My boss, Christi, told me not to worry about writing until I get better.
- New Small Group–I attended my previous church for 19 years. I’ve been attending this small group for three weeks. When I told them I would be absent, they prayed for me and sent positive messages. They are even fasting for me next Wednesday.
- Best Nephew ever—At my cousin’s wedding last week, I was tired and had my head bowed down. Five-year old Mikko surprised me with a hug and kiss.
- Encouraging Blockheads—I admin this Facebook group to get NKOTB on the Cover of People. I told them I would not be posting for a few days because I’m sick. So many members left empathetic messages offering positive thoughts and prayers.
- No Hurley from LOST—When I get sick, I usually look like Hurley from LOST because my hair is wild. (It’s naturally curly but not Felicity curly.) Hooray; the new detangler is working!
What’s on your “10 List”?
Thank You, Everyone!