Victim Blaming Happens to Sick People Too

imagesI recently saw an article about the twenty dumbest things said on a popular sports show.  I was discussing this with a colleague.  He said you often hear the sentiment that winning is all about “wanting it badly enough.”  When the Miami Heat started losing a couple years ago, Lebron James was berated for not wanting it badly enough.  Recently some analysts predicted that the less experienced Chris Algieri would beat Manny Pacquiao, the only fighter in history to have titles in eight different weight classes, because Algieri was hungry and wanted it badly.  Pacquiao knocked Algieri down a whopping six times!  I don’t doubt Algieri’s work ethic, tenacity, (or as they say in boxing) “heart.”  But sometimes positivity is just not enough when you’re facing an all-time-great.   I’m not a professional athlete but I can relate to these cliches.  I’ve heard well-meaning people tell me or insinuate that I could beat my disease (or wouldn’t have gotten sick in the first place) if I wanted health badly enough as if fighting an illness is like competing in the Superbowl.  Sometimes, people tell me that God would heal me if I had more faith.  This is insulting to many people dealing with chronic illnesses and disabilities.  Believe me:  Sometimes, there is nothing I want more than not to be in pain every minute of every day.

Victim Blaming

A couple years ago, when I ran a podcast, I did one called, “5 Things NOT to Say to Someone Who’s Been Raped or Sexually Assaulted + 5 Things TO Say to Someone Who’s Been Raped or Sexually Assaulted.”  I got lots of praise from rape survivors.  Though society has made progress, rape culture is still prevalent.  How many survivors are asked, What were you wearing? or, Why didn’t you fight back?  When I meet friends of friends, I am sometimes subjected to a mini-interrogation.

People see my cane and ask, “What were you doing before you got sick?  Did you exercise?  What were you eating?”

I think it would make them feel better if I told them I was an obese, lazy, drug addict.  It would justify my getting sick because I deserved it.  It’s hard to confront your own mortality, and admit that sometimes bad things happen to good people.  Sickness can be random–I was fit, young, and exercising  five days a week before Myasthenia Gravis invaded my life at the age of twenty-four.  I went from doing yoga to not being able to feel my legs within four months.

Positivity Is Not A Guarantee

Don’t get me wrong:  I’m not saying that positivity and gratitude have no benefits.  As someone with five illnesses (bipolar 2, polycystic ovarian syndrome, MG, asthma, and psoriasis), counting my blessings has helped me stay sane.  I’ve seen resilient and positive loved ones survive cancer.  But I’ve also lost many resilient, positive loved ones to cancer.  Too many, in fact.  Reducing life and death matters to positive thinking is taking the concept of positivity to absurd heights.  If being positive or good were all that mattered, millions of children wouldn’t live in poverty.

Please Don’t Lecture Me

I remember one day–a year after I was hospitalized in critical condition for MG–I was typing.  I had to work very hard at re-learning many activities like showering, eating, and typing.  I was eager to get my life back on track (I still am).  All the sudden, the 24/7 pain in my fingers was amplified.  I screamed.  The pain shot right through me.  My cousin, who was sitting next to me sternly said, “You have to fight this.”  That was all he said.  Then, he returned to his work at his computer.  While I’m sure he meant well, it came across as a lecture, especially since he’s never fought an illness.  I am not a wayward athlete who skipped practice.  I’m a hardworking, sick person fighting five opponents that are sometimes stronger than I am.  Living with chronic illness, I have rough days, and sometimes rough seasons.  Sometimes, I have good days.

Happiness Isn’t Always A Choice

One oft-repeated expression that irks me is, “Happiness is a choice.”  As someone with bipolar disorder (who has also lost a friend to this disease), sometimes happiness is not completely within our control.  Chemical imbalances and mental illnesses are real.  Many people with mental illnesses or chronic pain or fatigue diseases (or all of the above) wake up determined to be positive but there are days when the illness wins.  When that happens, I tell myself: Okay, I lost this round.  But I’m gonna get the next one.  Implicitly or explicitly asking patients to deny their pain (I’ve had people ask me how I’m doing and then walk away when I don’t say “fine”) or reducing their struggles to positivity and effort exacerbates our pain.  Yes, it’s hard to know what to say when someone you love is hurting or dying.  When in doubt, the best thing to do is listen.   The simple act of listening is validating.  When I friend listens, I feel like I’m not in this alone.

–Your Stylist, Jessica Gimeno

Food for thought: Speech by Journalist and Cancer Survivor, Dr. Barbara Ehrenreich, “How Positive Thinking Undermines America.”  A Fashionably ill reader, Michele, sent me this thought-provoking speech.

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JessicaGimeno

Hi, I have five illnesses--bipolar disorder, myasthenia gravis (neuromuscular autoimmune disease), polycystic ovarian syndrome, asthma, and psoriasis. Most of the organs in my body are affected. I'm dedicated to being a stylist for sick women. As someone who has experienced changes in my appearance due to my 12 meds (including Prednisone), I know how hard it can be when your face and body change overnight. (In fact, because of treatment, between 2008 to 2010, I went from a size 0 to a size 10. While I lost the weight, there are permanent changes in my face and body, which I've grown to appreciate.) My blog will also help women deal with other issues like surviving chronic pain and fatigue. Healthy people can also use this blog as a window into what life with illness is like. Let this website be a place where we can draw strength from each other despite our illnesses and find solutions to our everyday challenges!

9 thoughts on “Victim Blaming Happens to Sick People Too

  • December 15, 2014 at 11:03 am
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    Very well said!!!

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  • December 15, 2014 at 9:32 pm
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    Ooh did you hit this out of the park. I tweet about this, write about this, rant about this, talk in groups about this, Facebook about this … In fact I call it beating people with sunshine or hidden negativity.

    Myillness makes someone uncomfortable and they don’t know what that feeling is so they thrash about and grab what’s nearest and that’s blame. I’m doing this ” being sick” thing wrong. That aren’t self aware enough to understand that they have the problem that needs to be fixed at that moment. My problem is getting help, theirs is floundering and being hurtful to others, worse yet, society backs it.

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  • January 13, 2015 at 10:57 pm
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    Amen!

    Thank you Jessica.

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  • February 24, 2015 at 9:50 am
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    Reading this on my phone right now as I sit a hospital waiting room with my spouse, who has been chronically I’ll for a long time. Thank you, Jessica. Found reading this very cathartic and comforting – to know we aren’t the only ones who experience this. Grace and peace to you.

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  • September 23, 2015 at 2:53 pm
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    for some reason my text is all capitalized here, my caps lock isn’t on, so I’m not yelling I promise.

    I wanted to say that your comment regarding “Obese, lazy, Drug addicts” deserving to be ill, I find severely lacks compassion. There are psychological and physical reasons for addiction and obesity. People that judge others without knowing their situation don’t know what they’re talking about.

    No one, barring perhaps people who purposefully go out of their way to harm others, deserve to have their life destroyed by severe, chronic illness.

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    • September 23, 2015 at 3:03 pm
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      Hi Cate,
      I agree with you! Just to clarify: When I wrote that, I was referring to what people who were asking me (and other sick people) these common questions (were you exercising/what size were you/what did you look like pre-sickness?) are implying. I don’t view myself and other sick people or anyone as “obese, lazy, drug addicts” but that’s the impaction of those questions put together. Of course, there are complex reasons for people being in the conditions they are in whether that’s addiction or obesity or chronic illness. That’s what I was trying to communicate in this piece about victim blaming and judgment.
      Thanks for the feedback,
      Jessica

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  • September 26, 2015 at 8:33 am
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    I went over this website and I think you have
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    • September 26, 2015 at 8:04 pm
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      Dear Kala,
      I’m so glad you find Fashionably ill useful! Let me know if there is a topic you’d like me to write about and I’ll try my best. You may want to join our community on Facebook to bond with other people or keep up with my work, speeches, other developments through my newsletter. It’s a more intimate forum where I share more than I do on my website. You can sign up here (readers also get a free Depression Tool Kit): http://www.fashionablyillgift.com
      –xoxo, Jessica

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